WANNA SHOP AT CHARLOTTE RUSSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:( Singapore doesn't have :(

many many many many thanks to EVERYONE who made today extra special and memorable <3

THANKS for all smses/ msn convos/ facebook wall posts. rest assured that i read EVERY SINGLE ONE of them and i am very glad that people do remember that it's my birthday!! heehee. i may not be close to some of you, but the fact that you guys even bother to leave me a message or something shows that i am still remembered!!! even for a second or so. and i am really thankful for it!!!

gosh i am FILLED WITH LOVE for everyone now, especially the usual gang. omg i sound like a stupid bimbo with a very limited vocab, but okay i guess i really have limited vocab so no choice.

(you don't need good vocab to show how thankful/ appreciative/ touched you are what!)
 
ANYWAY today i realised that i am really a Very Very Very Very Very Very Lucky Girl. firstly, thanks to all those who were involved in the planning process. i don't exactly know who you all are, but i love you all all the same :D and when i read the cards my heart really exploded with happiness because they're just so sweet and people said so many nice things about me and idk it just makes me feel good and guilty because sometimes i think i am not being a very good friend :S ohwell okay actions speak louder than words i am gonna make sure our friendship never dies because you guys make up a super big part of my life and i don't want any one of you to disappear from my life!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am feeling very reflective and all the stupid emo songs are playing on my itunes now. omg i don't want real life to start i want to go back school i want to continue living this erm transitory (?!?!?!) life and i don't ever want to know my results and i don't ever want to lose contact with any one of you and i don't want any of my friends to go overseas i don't want any of my friends to go army :( sigh i am so selfish why!!!

k this entry is starting to sound depressed NO I WON'T LET THAT SPOIL MY WONDERFUL DAY i shall remain cheerful :D

but i really don't want to end this entry. omg i think emotions are like spilling out of me or something today i truly realised how fortunate i have been all this while!!! someone has always been there for me but i just DON'T appreciate it at times. okay i hope i will never ever make that mistake again. because. well because i want the status quo to remain. and to the usual gang (yo!) i hope we are able to meet each other like every week or sth. what with work and all nowadays we seldom really go out and i admit sometimes i am also so tired from work i also can't be bothered to meet people cos i just want to go home and die and cry at my monotonous life hahaha.

omg i am going to cry again. I HAVE TURNED INTO A SAPPY OLD FART AT THE MERE AGE OF 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k. I LOVE EVERYONE AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

okay i tell myself i won't blog until results are out but i think i should blog about the MOST DRAMATIC AND MEMORABLE NIGHT OF MY LIFE (so far). everyone reading this, i am a loser!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to cut the long story short, my contacts in my left eye broke and disappeared into my upper eyelid and i had to go to A&E at CGH to get all the pieces dug out by the doctor in the middle of the night hahahahha. okay not funny. it sounds painful and gross but it wasn't painful lah. the digging process was traumatising and i kept making wimping noises but i guess it's more painful for those observing the process (LIKE MY MUM AND SIS) than the person undergoing the process. the doctor had to use a toothpick with a cotton bud to dig out the pieces :( SO ANYWAY 3 pieces came out after 3 diggings and the doctor had to dig once more to make sure there's no more contacts inside.

hahahaha i sound so detailed. i seriously have no idea why 1) my contacts disappeared and 2) my contacts broke since they are soft lens. DOTS.

I CAN'T WEAR CONTACTS FOR THE TIME BEING :( :( :( YUCKS. and now my left eye has a cut somewhere and my left eye vision is blur i sincerely hope it's temporary if not i will get depressed :(

EVERYONE STOP WEARING CONTACTS!!! nah i am kidding. i am such an unlucky loser!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. okay but then again i was crying as i was taking out my contacts so i think that's how my contacts disappeared. AND WHY WAS I CRYING!?!?!? COS I THOUGHT I MET WITH SOME PERVERT ON MY WAY HOME AND I WAS SO TRAUMATISED THE MOMENT I SAW MY MUM I STARTED CRYING.

k i am starting to sound unstable BYE :D :(

OMGOMG i need to stop thinking about studies when i'm lying on my bed before i sleep. thanks to bloody national unity which kept me awake for like more than half an hour yesterday night. well anyway, you dream about things that you think about right? so my worry over NU was translated into a total nightmare. like, literally. omg the nightmare was so real i almost cried in my dream.

anyway i dreamt that it was CT2 and i had a total of 2h to complete my history, chem and econs (didn't dream of math hahaha). i don't know why but all the questions were just combined into one paper. 2 HOURS!!! I HAD TO COMPLETE 2 ECONS CASE STUDIES, 2 HISTORY ESSAYS AND A WHOLE LOT OF CHEM QUESTIONS. omg the dream was super vivid i can still remember every single detail. after 1 hour had gone by i only finished a bit of my history essay and a bit of my case study and a bit of chem. and i kept flipping and changing topics/subjects cos i couldn't do the questions OMG. seriously. total nightmare i almost cried. the relief i felt when i woke up was beyond description man. like PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. omgomgomomgomg stop stressing at nights.

:( back to NU!!!

sometimes i think i am very pessimistic :( i saw some things i shouldn't have seen. sigh. and there's no one online now to talk to! most of the class people went off for Y camp :( like usually i will have 60+++ people online, NOW I HAVE 24. class people plus chorale people come back please! you're missed :)

okay i shall do nerissa's quiz :D


sigh. i don't feel any better. yesterday morning i completely wasted one hour of my precious (LOL) time reading this online print called I Believe You by Low Kay Hwa. erm the english is quite O_O and the plot is SUPER predictable (yay i predicted everything correctly) but in the end i still cried quite badly! seriously, i am a tap. dripdripdripdripdripdrip. those interested go google it! the first 11 clapters will come out :) as for chapters 12-20, google it! most likely you will end up at this guy's blog cos he posted the chapters up. his background music is damn sad somemore lah. conducive for crying. and there's this code in the book which a lot of people can't decode but i decoded it in 1 sec?! i think i am a super boliao person. my brain works best at boliao stuff whee.

LONDON IS DAMN FUNNY (ZACK AND CODY) she reads XOXOXOXOXO (hugs and kisses) as OX OX OX hahahaha OMG.

2 more weeks. oh no! I LOVE COLDPLAY'S VIVA LA VIDA <3 <3 <3 everyone go listen to the song!!!

If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Woud angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you

If I kissed you
What would Michaelangelo say
Would he still have sculpted David
Would we be immortalized in clay
Would the poets write of love like ours
Would John Donne have his say
If I kissed you

You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But l guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you

If I kissed you
Would you lose track of time
Would you feel a surge of happiness
Running up your spine
Would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
If I kissed you
Oh, if I kissed you
Yeah, if I kissed you

i love the song <3 ALMOST A WEEK has gone by without my various (SING)s online hahaha. i was so touched to receive julian's sms yesterday! (really super touched x 1000000; i couldn't stop smiling :D) all the way from poland just to say they just finished their first competition aaaaaahhhhhhhhh. i miss you guys a lot a lot :D then bennett smsed 6h+ later to tell me the results! YAY WELL DONE CHORALE I LOVE YOU GUYS. erm 2 or 3 more competitions to go! hahahha :) :) :) yay i am so happy for them!!! 

so sad i still visit chris' blog everytime i am online even though i know he's not gonna blog. hahahahaha EVERYONE COME BACK NOW.

holidays have been fine so far (minus the studying). yay i love hols :D i want to buy a beach dress! grr.

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH MINSI :D 
bennett i hope you showed minsi my sms heehee. 

oh. speaking of which, i had another damn realistic dream yesterday. i have been dreaming vividly for the past 2 nights, erm is that a good thing? :S yesterday's dream started off DAMN GOOD to er scary. i dreamt of possessed spirits in the end WTF. sigh k. i shall go back to cutting my nails. hahahaah multi-tasking ftw.

i am damn sad :( i need to post pictures and do stupid things to make myself feel better :(

gilly's surprise dinner! :D yay. manhattan fish market's food is surprisingly quite nice! although they kinda rip a lot of ideas off fish and co. but yup. the food is super good! or at least the one that me/melody ordered :D


okay and i didn't touch gp. sigh. I HATE LIFE. sometimes i think it's the best to feel nothing. but i guess that sucks too :( and i love my friends a lot a lot a lot. woon i am sorry i didn't reply you and make you worry!!!

i have officially lost track of time. i found out today that next week is the last week of school, before the intensive mugging begins again. GAH. totally hate it, but that's life. i am still quite shocked that it's week 9 now. i seriously thought we were still in week 7 >< omg.

anyway, that's not why i blogged. i decided it's finally time for me to stop procrastinating and blog about concert!

ohwell. all i can say is, CONCERT REALLY ROCKED. actually it's like my 1st year doing so many songs at one go. in the good old RG days we always do (at most) 6 songs? then there's busking/sectional item and medley after that. so technically it's not very vocally challenging (in a sense lah). then last year we only did like 6 combined songs. and we performed in LT 1 zz. so it didn't seem like a concert at all? and plus the fact that i really don't like the songs we did last year. i really hated dziedot (whatever its spelling is) and i still hate it! don't ask me why. ahwell k i shall stop being biased. then this year i somehow love all the songs that we do! seriously, other than warm up, i really really REALLY love the repetoire. college anthem included! LOL. and singing at esplanade just makes everything x100000000 better. AAAAAAHHH okay enough of all these. which songs made it to recording? someone tell me please, if you know :D

well all i can say is, i am really glad i ended my 5 year (SUET I SAID 5 YEARS :D) choral experience with a bang :) raffles chorale was a mixture of bittersweet, but ultimately deep down i know i still love chorale to bits and pieces and i really really love everyone in chorale. k actually don't need to go deep down in my heart. it's a well-known fact that i love chorale! YAY!!!! altos especially! yay i have been an alto ALL MY LIFE please. today is like my first monday free after so long. it felt weird seeing the basses and altos and tenors having sectionals while i went off to support netball. it's like, they are all so busy with chorale and i am in a league of my own :( ahwell. i told altos i will join them for sectionals next monday, but i forgot next monday is a public holiday :( GAH. so sian lah.

okay back to main topic. i am really really glad for chorale lah. sometimes i think it is quite sad when some people don't like their CCAs. like seriously, other than boring school and academics, CCA is an outlet for you to enjoy/relax/do something you really love. although i keep complaining about pracs, i actually love them a lot. (although i hate the process of getting out of bed at 6am on sats especially!!! but it's okay. once i reach sch i get excited about chorale again) yeah. aaaahhhhhh. omg. i love my batch!!! i love my altos!!! (sorry to others whom i have left out; i love you all too, just that i didn't get to get close to you all :( )

BATCH 08: all my loves!!!! i am really really glad to have you all by my side. everytime i am sick of life etc i walk into chorale and there's all of you to cheer me up. i think ours is the only CCA where the girls are more vulgar than the guys? really lah, the guys all have DAMN GOOD personality. julian! i really really think you have a super good temper. everytime we will just make fun of you and you are still fine with it? (although you know we are joking duh!) k the rest of the guys also. just that i really must give special mention to julian cos i think sometimes we ill treat him too much! hahahahaha. and the girls! aaaaahhhhhh I LOVE ALL OF YOU! need i say more :) :) :) 

ALTOS 08: omg i love you all too! although i admit i have been neglecting my alto 2 J1s (sorry!!!). we know we rock! yay you all must keep the power of HWOAH k. i will come and visit you all again! and my darling alto 1s, yay we have gone a long way! from like erm 3 people in the beginning of the year (cat me vivien), we managed to expand until we have 6! (+ clara, victoria, isaaaaa) although we always get the in between half-sopline-half-altoline parts, yay we did it in the end during concert! 

aiyah sian. there's so many poeple in chorale that i miss. then like last time i will always get to see them on wed and sat. or whenever i go to the booth. but now i hardly see so many people around! esp the J1s, since J2s i can still find them at the table :) :(

TOUR GROUP! good luck for your trip x 1000000000! rest assured i will come and send you off! unless you all assemble at like 1 plus am... then cannot lah :( but you will won't right! it's evening right! :D :D :D 

aiyah i think my biggest regret this year is not being able to do o magnum  for concert. and that we never take a FULL CHORALE PIC :( ohwell. and i don't regret not going for the trip, but all i can say is life would have been much better if i can just totally ignore academics and go for trip :( k lah and my nodules problem also (luckily it kinda healed before concert; so okay no complaints) OHWELL. nowadays whenever i read chorale people's blogs on how much they love lux etc i get this feeling of... emptiness inside. like okay when minsi sent me the song i also think it's damn nice but i just don't love it the same way as they do cos i am simply... not part of it :( ohwell. it's okay i am really fine with it. just a random thought! :)

THOSE WHO WANT PICS! please ask from me online :) 

OH YES. and a bigggggg thank you to all those who went to support on concert night! although it's a weekday and there's school the next day. i was really super touched lah. 

okay, and that's a chapter closed in my life. sigh. i doubt i will ever join choir again in university because i am not keen to sing in an adult choir. and the feeling will be different anyway. yup. this entry turned out to be a lot happier than i thought it would be, but it's a good thing! at least it makes me smile :) :) when i read my blog again erm 10 years down the road i still want to feel the same warm and fuzzy kinda feeling that i am feeling now!

sian. and now it's back to reality. i am totally lagging behind my work. SIAN. TV's my weakness nowadays. i am too lazy to proof read my entry so i am just going to post it hahaha.

[edit] CHORALE BATCH OF 08 WE BETTER STILL HAVE REGULAR MEETINGS AFTER GRADUATION! (thank you kialiang for reminding me heehee) seriously i want to read this blog entry 10 years later and think something like: omg yeah i had a smashing concert in 2008 and now it's 2018 and i am meeting my batch for lunch later! (or sth along those lines) everyone must make the effort k. which reminds me. i am really, really glad for all my memories <3 [/edited]